Weeds and Flowers ( Joli)

  Jess took her hand and when she stood upright she immediately hugged her. Joli hissed a bit, biting her lip to distract herself from all the pain it was causing. But it was kinda... Nice? She wasn't hugged in a lot of time, apart from her parents.
  'Don't worry they will never know about it or that you had a crush on Fuchs or about your voices,' Jess said before letting her go. 'Want something to drink?'
  Joli was silent. Something snapped inside her and she slowly looked at the girl before her, her face scrunched up from suspicion.
  'You.. You told him... Why did you tell him?' she asked confused, stepping back from the girl.

  'Told who? I didn't tell anyone I swear!' she said in her defence. 'Like... No I wouldn't... Well I used to but... How could you even think something like that.'
  'Told Mister Fuchs!' Joli replied angrily. 'You are the only person who could know! You must have told him, how else would he know?' She felt a panic attack coming up, but she needed to stay strong now.
  How could she do that?
  Nobody cares about you, that's why.

  'I didn't tell him anything! I swear!' Jess screamed. 'I just want to be friends! THAT'S ALL HOW CAN YOU EVEN THINK IT WAS ME!'
  'BECAUSE IT'S THE MOST LOGICAL ANSWER!' Joli shouted back, feeling the anger and panic becoming more. 'As if he would know himself, I mean...' she started. 'I mean, he can't... You... It has to be you!' she was on the verge of crying, but she held it in.
  Stay. Strong. Please.

  'I really didn't though...' Jess mumbled after some silence.
  Joli shook her head, already heavy breathing, feeling her body starting to shake. Yep, a panic attack was coming and there was nothing to stop it. Animals will go crazy soon...
  'I don't believe you,' she said. 'I.. I don't. You really are the only one who could say it. You talk so... So fucking much, I'm sure you slipped it somewhere...'
  Then the tears came, streaming down her face she knelt down on the floor, letting the panic attack take over. Around her she could see the birds flying from tree to tree, already starting to go crazy.

  'I DIDN'T and I don't talk fucking much or at least try to! How can you even blame me, what have I ever done to you?! I just offered you a drink!' Jess responded.
  Joli looked up, she only saw the girl as a blur since her eyes were full of tears. 'You. Told. Him.' was the only thing she said before looking down again. Now the animals went crazy and she felt so sorry for them, but there was no stopping it...

  'Fine if you don't believe me! But I know that I didn't cause I changed, and worked hard to do so!' Joli heard Jess say. She tried to block it out, but she couldn't.
  'I just wanted to be friends and help you, but if you don't want that, fine. But don't count on me keeping secrets cause all I am to you is a fucking threat huh then fine, so be it. Maybe I still am, thanks a lot Joli!' Jess said.
  Joli could hear her walking away. That's when she allowed herself to let it all go. She was sobbing with a lot of anger and sadness, not holding anything back. Eventually she calmed down and the animals aswell. She breathed in deeply with a shaky breath and let it out. She sat like that for like an half hour, not moving, not crying. Only her.


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